TIME OFF ; 121010

hai has been awhile since i last update hor ..

todae in skul , i came with a swollen eye . :'( caused by lotsa crying frm ystdae til todae even til at skul :(

haiz .

so i am having time off w fakir .

so he said if i were to miss hym , i can text hym . but i felt that there is no need to ..

lets really ttime off ..

i think u n i , we both need to see if we realli wan to be together :(

maybe this is my instinct or what , but i dun tink u still hve any feelings for me :(

then whats the point in holding onto an empty shell ?

haiz .

god , i wan to cry again ..

kaela dada .

if only u noe that i have started to realli love u .

<3

had a big fight w rabani again !! tears stop pls !!
haiz .. tis is wad hapen at fb ...
Muhammad Rabani sigh...idk how to put it..


Miz EmmaLine put it how ? ban its juz as simple as talking . lau kte avoid each othr , smpi bler2 pon i wont nioe wad is the real thing . hmm syidah said she talked to u . im didnt noe bout it till she tell me . ban pls !! anw even bdk npcc sec 3 ask me abt us kae . see hw obvious it has become . :(

.Muhammad Rabani i know..bcoz i really love u tat i must try not to talk to u alrd...

Miz EmmaLine love ? well nvr noe lak u love smeone so u hve to avoid her .. :( nvr thot of hw i felt dun u ? so tat is wad u kol love ?

Muhammad Rabani sigh...

Miz EmmaLine ban !!! pls dun do tis sigh thing !! we cannot foreva avoid each othr . well i noe u r upset w me . but i cant promise u antink wad . if u really do love me dn u will not do tis to me . n if u really do u mite wan wait fr me . its not i expect u too . but .... haiz i dunno . u wont undstand wont u ....

 .Muhammad Rabani wait??SIGH...

Miz EmmaLine den dun wait la !!! ban !!! urgh !!! idk wad is happening btwn us !! haiz !! im so upset w u :'(

 .Muhammad Rabani sigh...good lor...k lor..i impatience..happy??so,hate me now??

.Muhammad Rabani anw,wanna continue chat,msg me...i gtg

Miz EmmaLine ape yg impatience ??!!!! i didnt say i hate u !! u r the one hating tis frenshp !!!

.Muhammad Rabani sigh.....

Muhammad Rabani u win,u can chat with me if u want to from tmr onwards...

Miz EmmaLine u treat me lyk tis ?? wad am i sia to u ??? so nw i am given the permission to talk w u ??? so wad i shud be saying ok ??? wads w the pretence tat we will soon face kan ....

Muhammad Rabani kk...chat with me at msg now..i tell u everything...

dn all tat ends in mcges ! whr tmrw i hve to strt the conversation !! wth !! haiz nvm la .. i will juz do it . tired of fighting i suppose ! :"(

kaela bye ..

unfair to be a step daughter :'(

i have practically grown up w stepmothers(2 of them) for the part 11 years .

if only mum is still alive , im sure i will b a much mre hapier :)

well , ystdae mama nag at me .

fr not cooking !

haiz . i am tired mah . n furthermre b4 she comes back thrs notink except cabbage .

dun expect me to cook smtg so vegie mah .-.-

well , i noe tat im not the bez daughter uhs . i have my flaws .

ya , i agree i tend to be a lazy bitch at times but smtms i am realli tired of trying to mke

tis family works. :(

u claim tat i nvr respected u n nvr eva undstand the fact the u r the only sole-bread winner .

im sori tat u hve to do the earnin of money .

well , if u r nt hapie ,

dn its btwn u my dad.

smtms ,

thr r things btwn husband n wife cant b share w daughter dear mum .

i may b lostening but im certainly dun lyk the way u talk bad bout dad to me .

n i certainly dislyk the idea of u tellin othr ppl bout dad -.-

hmm .

well smtms i yearned a hug frm sumne kol MUM!

i hvnt had it fr years :(

u may b a stepmum but u marry my dad so u r my mum .

hve u eva asked me ,

hve u eaten ?

hws skul ?

so do u hve any probs ?

or even a simple hw r u?

-.-

hve u eva compliment ,

the way i dress ?

the way i look?

NO !!!

dn wad kind of mum r u ?

i noe u r much mre better dn tat abusive mum ; umie .

but u r the same as her .

both of u didnt love me .

juz bcos im ur stepdaughter :(

hmm . :'(

ibu knape ibu tingalkn akak ? :'(

u didnt love me dun u ?

bcos of u i nvr felt the love frm a mum  .

i realli yearned to b hug n kiss by u mum !

altho i now u prefer mamat dn me .

but i still love u .

pls b hapie wereva u r .

GOD pls put her by ur side cos ilove her dearly :(

i sumhw miss hys presence :"(

once a stranger ,
then a squadmate ,
then an aquintance ,
followed by mutual frens
then nw we r beztie !

hw cud u juz give up on me lyk tat ?
nk break record ke ?
u hvnt been talking to me since i tink 15 july dear ______
hw cud u do dat ?
hmm . i noe im showing attitude to u in class but can u atleast try to atleast talk to me ?
if it didnt ring ur bell , i m fed up w hw u talk n treat me la wei !

TSK!TSK!
u r really punishing me fr smtg dat is nt even a mistake i did to u .
nw evryone is asking me abt us .
hw do u tink i can possibly avoid dis qns ?
think uhs .
u do dis to me n i have to answer to ppl ard us ?
nt fair aites .!

but i really do miss ur jokes n ur care .
lyk i said u are my beztie n honestly fakir pon tk mind mah !
u r my fren even b4 hys my guy .
so think uhs ! haiz !

                                                 hmm juz memories :(
                                    nw we r juz enemies ( wad he wans uh ..)

im so missing hym ♥

hmm , the whole of ystdae , i didnt text hym or chat w hym at msn .
hys pp8 muz stil b low n tat he muz have gone out to lepak ..
haiz . sumhw i miss hym . :'(
lyk duh !
he is my boify .
but a fren said to me tat "ko st8 pon same mcm ko maseh knal2 ngn dier -.-"
haiz ! havnt met hym yet .
n we hve been tgthr fr 1 wk plus alrd :'(
haiya .
got tis feeling he will get bored w me as we cud not spend tym tgthr seyh :(
BIE !! IM SO SORIE !
haiz . :'(
how ?
hmmmmmmm .
idk !
im lost of words . bye !

esppecially for euu ^^

                                                          LOVE U LOTS . MUAX <3
                                              muhammad fakir hidayat azman♥
                                                         ♥ nur amalina abdul rahman

180710 ;

todae im so pissed off w mum !
first she say im gg to granny hse
dn she came bck w a facee (nt happy)
she say nt gg .
lyk wtf !!
mum!! wads wrong w u seyh ??
dn i felt a little sad cos i cud not mit bie .:(

later at night sudenly i bcame bz ,
mcging non stop .
bt bie pp8 low ..
so not w bie but w ba .
at first evrytink was normal .
we jok ebout the status thing n all .
dn he accidentally send a mcg meant fr our junior chang  huat !
it goes smtg lyk tis .
" haha the status was a joke ! bt if mama is sgl i will take her as my gf ."
i was lyk huh??
dn i told ba ..
n he goes .. " omg ! u knew ! my secret !"
n it followed by a few mre mcges nt meant fr me .
saying how sad n hurt he felt since im officially in a reltionshp .
 so i asked hym personally do u lyk me ..
n he goes " no ... yes ... idk .."
n the day end w , ma , nw tat u r att dun hve to talk to me animre k ?
n pls hate me .. "

the nxt day he acted he dunnoe me . wen i mcged hym dn miskol .
he koled bck n say  "hu r u ? idk u uh !"
so i put dwn the phone .. he called bck ! we fought !!
haiz ...

dn the day aftr ,
i forwarded hym a mcg ,
again he acted nt noeing me .
n i was lyk " wadeva eh "
n he say okdn lina...
so he damn noe hu i am ..
we fought again !!
dn i juz say i dun wann gado w u ..

he dn text me again asking me wad imwearing fr rhd !!
so random pe ba ?/
wtf !!
later at night he text me again , saying  he missed me !!
omg !! ba !!!
merepek to the max eh kau !!!
so i was juz texting hym w ouh ok .
haiya !! so merepek !!

dala ba . go bc to tat chinese gal k ?
haiz ...


dala bye :(

170710 ;

since todae is saturday , lyk any other saturdays , tat im at hme ,
it was damn boring !!
haiz! :'(
well todae i cooked kari ayam ..
heheh ^^
hungry bah so cook uh .
my bro says its delicious ,
so two thumbs up to me ! yeay !
hehe .
ntg much happened at hme ,
bie text me .
i asked hym bout the two gals story .
n he told me evrytink .
hmm seems lyk she was once very dear to hym .
i wanna ask hym ,
bt i fear tat he might get angry .
hmmmm , i wud lyk to ask ,
" bie , if one day she cme bck to u n wants to b w u again . wad will u do ? dump me ?"
hmm idk .
but u say  u love me kan .
dn i was a little pissed w bie coz he dunnoe my name  ..
he goes
"nur amalina bte rahim "
n i go ,
"sape tuu ? u gt my name wrong md fakir hidayat bin azman "
n he eply
"nur amalina bte abdul rahim :)"
n i say
" no !! stil wrong !1 :'("
then lastly he got it right ^^
hahah .. nvm it was juz a small matter kn bie <3
dn bie asked if he can b gd bf to me ?
yes off course bie ! i  noe u will !
i trust u kae honey ?!
juz dun break tat trust ..
n i hope u trust metoo ^^

lastly , sayang love hubbie <3

bye ^^ muax

160710 ;

todae was a grumpy day !
why were they showing atitude w me sia ?
fcuk !
haiz !
wen wan calss me , "wak , wak !"
i juz act didnt hear .
n i noe pretty well i showed face at hym .
lyk duh , im hurt sia !
but i was mre fed up tat  rabani didnt talk to me at all !
plus he showed face at me .
wad i do to hym ?
he angry bout the status thing ?
IDK seyh !
haiya !
" baba , tkmo gini uh mama kene change it uh .!

apart frm all tat , my day was actually ok . haha
mumy , lulu , syidah n caca kept disturbing to find out the indonesian guy's name .
hahahha . but no doubt he quite cute uhs ^^ hehs he made my day wen he smiled at me . :)
but i gt boify alrd if not .... hahah . sorie bie jk ! ^^ lol .
so mumy was lyk wen u wan ask hym . i was lyk tkpe RHD i wan tke pic w hym .
so they all say SET ! hahahhah .

nw tat nyt wan text me n say sorie n tat he hope my relationship last ..
while he is figuring out whether to patch w hys ex gf . .
i juz say gd luck in ur love lyf  ye wan ^^

hey u ! stop staring at me larh . wad r u nt hapie abt ?
wad cos of ur mataer ?
dun worry kae ? i wont steal hym away frm u . he is only my ex .!
furthrmre ive move on so he pon da tk exist !

bie , hmm susa e kte nk mit ?
distance .....
hpefully u tk gt bored lak ..  sori love ..
muax <3

bye ^^

update fr the past weeks ;

so i will b blogging bout past week ^^

to b cont'd.............

Boo!!!

Hihi  =) Her Bf here
Since my cute girlfriend lazy to update,i shall help her hehe
Its has been 1 week since we r together n we r still staying strong haha
Nobody gg to bring us down right r D?hehe
Dont worry k D?even if things get worst,i will always stay right here with u
Watever things they throw at us,we get through it together k D?
K la im offf..........bubye D muawh
WO AI NI =D
UNTIL WO GILAR haha =)

hey wan stop la!!!

haiz ..!!
felt bad . wan is blaming me fr hurtin hym .
he claim i cheat on hym !!!
wth !!
wan sejak bler seyh ??
told u nt to put hopes wad !! u yg nk wait !!
waduh!!
dn dun go ard putting the whole blame on me...!!1
first u dun even noe rabani is my bf or not , dn u go scold me as if i expects u n bani to gado!!!
dn u say i play w ur heart !! excuse me hu lyk hu now eh ?
dn u bloodily says u frgive me fr hurting u ??
eh ive said sorie ... u call me alot of things dn u apologise fr saying such things ?
haiz hurts me damn hard eh !!
waliao !!
tired seyh fight w u !!
juz ignore me pls!!!
mke me invisible k ?


bye !! :'(

140710 ;

hehehehehhehehe .
guess wad im changing my status frm single to in a relationship . ^^
but this tym round fr real ...
at 11:23 14 july , im officially attached to MUHAMMAD FAKIR HIDAYAT !!!<3
heheh !!
hpe last long ye bie ..
dun play w my heart ! dun break it pls! it has been broken fr a few tyms alrd ..
trust me k dear ...:)
n i promise to lve u whole heartedly .
nvr cheat on u .
stop cntcting w knal2 .
n stay faithful to only u .
hehe .
antink else u wan me promise ?
hehs .
lastly ;
love u bie ! ! <3

120710 ;

started of w i woke up late todae ! OMG! its alrd 6 ! was in a rush ! bt dun woorie , i bathed ! hehs^^

dn swee swee i rched skul juz in tym ! pheww ! hp safe ! mp4 safe ! n no scolding !

dn first period ;

mr mus lesson , get bck maths paper 2 ! waduh ! he says "almost" ! waliao ! bt i improve alot uhs .

bt guess wad fr few qn dat has been gone thru , i wasted 11 precious marks ! :'(

second period ,

mr low's lesson br he is nt in .attending sum cakra buana stuff . did ws . actually our prelim paper uhs .

i did it while listening to mp4 ! n mummy , lulu , akit ,fanaa go ... "so loud ??"

hahaha .

dn recess !!! ^^ ate kwey teow soto . nyum !

nxt english .

waliao chong lesson so damn sleepy !

todae at skul i sort of gt a shock while sleepin doing compre text . thot no one saw bt Akit Mansor and Nurul Farhanah saw n we laughed thruout tat so called test ! hahah n dn i burst out laughing . hahah lucky nvr gt scoldin . LOL .

dn poa ,

ouh results sux big tym .among the lowest aites !!

nxt assembly .

dunnoe wad is happening . i fall asleep n my head goes around lyk helicopter . hahah paiseh seyh !

nxt phy , lee nt in class half left to cabot . bt i among those hu stayed ! gd gall mah !!  hehs dat s all la fr todae . bubye . muax<<<333

if only i cud b frank ..!! :'(

 well , pic shows im lyk emo . it really shows hw i am nw . though tis pic is nt current . hmm , u noe i felt reall bad . i hve to lyk b w two guys seyh nw !
!! haiyo !! felt bad . both lyks me . both wans me as gf . both wans to wait fr me till aft o lvls . n both oso shows insincerity towards me . they mite nt notice i felt dat way bt realli both had their trust taken away frm me . so how ? idk hu shud i lyk b wif ? i dun wan at the end of the dae , they blame fr playin w their heaarts or so . haiz . bt idk  . haiz nt sure uhs . gotta make up my mind .:(

hey♥♥ back blogging ^^

Yahoo !! since i have a lappy alrd , can blogging owaes!!
hehs^^

started of with , i miss all my previous skul frens lyk suddenly seyh ! :'(

aiyoh !

kae prelim juz over , got results .
not dat gd though .
but i am really glad dat , i passed my maths ppr 1.
hope dat paper 2 is gonna b ok .
physics , i guess i've improved .
but sadly chemistry sux big tym !
therefore , i failed combined science .
i tink !! arrgh !!
combine human shud b an A2 . shud b uhs .
my social is my bez subject after malay uh , i was quite glad i passed geog paper quite well although i studied last minute . hehs^^ poa ? dun bother , i noe im gonna flung in tis subject !!

lyf ? am great . got lappy mah <3 . hehs !!
hmm , got to b serious nw , since o lvls is coming up .
i reaaly hpe i can ace thru it .
n dn go to poly of my dream .
hmm , i oso gotta stop lyking guys lei .
hehs !!
i hope he , will realy keep hys words in wanting to wait fr me .
bt i dun really expect ym uhs .
i oso dunno hw sinncere is he in "LOVING" me !!

hmm , dats all la fr nw ..
write soon ^^ muax..