eeynaLovez♥♥

27 JULY 2011 ):

2011-07-28T09:02:00.000+08:00

hey im not sure if u still viewed my blog or log in to it cos u r the only one who have my password ...

hey mr random . u really crashes my heart like so suddenly last night . whats w u ? our past , has long been burried & here u r , letting me go thru the past tt i do not wish to rmbr )):

why ?

telling me the reason for leaving cos you felt u weren't good enough?

that isnt a reason k ...

)):

now tt i have moved on , u made me guilty . i felt like as if im cheating on my own bf k .)

damn u !!!!!!

telling me u love me when im with sumone else.

where were u when , i waited fr u , fr months i prayed u would come back -.-

urghhh !!!!!!!

muhammad fakir hidayat bin azman , pls , dont come back .

i dont want him to know about this .

it made me feel real bad .

but hey , i do miss u like alot )):

tc . may u meet the girl of ur choice.

bye

TIME OFF ; 121010

2010-10-12T19:01:00.000+08:00

hai has been awhile since i last update hor ..

todae in skul , i came with a swollen eye . :'( caused by lotsa crying frm ystdae til todae even til at skul :(

haiz .

so i am having time off w fakir .

so he said if i were to miss hym , i can text hym . but i felt that there is no need to ..

lets really ttime off ..

i think u n i , we both need to see if we realli wan to be together :(

maybe this is my instinct or what , but i dun tink u still hve any feelings for me :(

then whats the point in holding onto an empty shell ?

haiz .

god , i wan to cry again ..

kaela dada .

if only u noe that i have started to realli love u .

2010-08-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

had a big fight w rabani again !! tears stop pls !!
haiz .. tis is wad hapen at fb ...
Muhammad Rabani sigh...idk how to put it..

Miz EmmaLine put it how ? ban its juz as simple as talking . lau kte avoid each othr , smpi bler2 pon i wont nioe wad is the real thing . hmm syidah said she talked to u . im didnt noe bout it till she tell me . ban pls !! anw even bdk npcc sec 3 ask me abt us kae . see hw obvious it has become . :(

.Muhammad Rabani i know..bcoz i really love u tat i must try not to talk to u alrd...

Miz EmmaLine love ? well nvr noe lak u love smeone so u hve to avoid her .. :( nvr thot of hw i felt dun u ? so tat is wad u kol love ?

Muhammad Rabani sigh...

Miz EmmaLine ban !!! pls dun do tis sigh thing !! we cannot foreva avoid each othr . well i noe u r upset w me . but i cant promise u antink wad . if u really do love me dn u will not do tis to me . n if u really do u mite wan wait fr me . its not i expect u too . but .... haiz i dunno . u wont undstand wont u ....

.Muhammad Rabani wait??SIGH...

Miz EmmaLine den dun wait la !!! ban !!! urgh !!! idk wad is happening btwn us !! haiz !! im so upset w u :'(

.Muhammad Rabani sigh...good lor...k lor..i impatience..happy??so,hate me now??

.Muhammad Rabani anw,wanna continue chat,msg me...i gtg

Miz EmmaLine ape yg impatience ??!!!! i didnt say i hate u !! u r the one hating tis frenshp !!!

.Muhammad Rabani sigh.....

Muhammad Rabani u win,u can chat with me if u want to from tmr onwards...

Miz EmmaLine u treat me lyk tis ?? wad am i sia to u ??? so nw i am given the permission to talk w u ??? so wad i shud be saying ok ??? wads w the pretence tat we will soon face kan ....

Muhammad Rabani kk...chat with me at msg now..i tell u everything...

dn all tat ends in mcges ! whr tmrw i hve to strt the conversation !! wth !! haiz nvm la .. i will juz do it . tired of fighting i suppose ! :"(

kaela bye ..

unfair to be a step daughter :'(

2010-08-01T06:44:00.000+08:00

i have practically grown up w stepmothers(2 of them) for the part 11 years .

if only mum is still alive , im sure i will b a much mre hapier :)

well , ystdae mama nag at me .

fr not cooking !

haiz . i am tired mah . n furthermre b4 she comes back thrs notink except cabbage .

dun expect me to cook smtg so vegie mah .-.-

well , i noe tat im not the bez daughter uhs . i have my flaws .

ya , i agree i tend to be a lazy bitch at times but smtms i am realli tired of trying to mke

tis family works. :(

u claim tat i nvr respected u n nvr eva undstand the fact the u r the only sole-bread winner .

im sori tat u hve to do the earnin of money .

well , if u r nt hapie ,

dn its btwn u my dad.

smtms ,

thr r things btwn husband n wife cant b share w daughter dear mum .

i may b lostening but im certainly dun lyk the way u talk bad bout dad to me .

n i certainly dislyk the idea of u tellin othr ppl bout dad -.-

hmm .

well smtms i yearned a hug frm sumne kol MUM!

i hvnt had it fr years :(

u may b a stepmum but u marry my dad so u r my mum .

hve u eva asked me ,

hve u eaten ?

hws skul ?

so do u hve any probs ?

or even a simple hw r u?

-.-

hve u eva compliment ,

the way i dress ?

the way i look?

NO !!!

dn wad kind of mum r u ?

i noe u r much mre better dn tat abusive mum ; umie .

but u r the same as her .

both of u didnt love me .

juz bcos im ur stepdaughter :(

hmm . :'(

ibu knape ibu tingalkn akak ? :'(

u didnt love me dun u ?

bcos of u i nvr felt the love frm a mum .

i realli yearned to b hug n kiss by u mum !

altho i now u prefer mamat dn me .

but i still love u .

pls b hapie wereva u r .

GOD pls put her by ur side cos ilove her dearly :(

i sumhw miss hys presence :"(

2010-07-30T21:40:00.000+08:00

once a stranger ,
then a squadmate ,
then an aquintance ,
followed by mutual frens
then nw we r beztie !

hw cud u juz give up on me lyk tat ?
nk break record ke ?
u hvnt been talking to me since i tink 15 july dear ______
hw cud u do dat ?
hmm . i noe im showing attitude to u in class but can u atleast try to atleast talk to me ?
if it didnt ring ur bell , i m fed up w hw u talk n treat me la wei !

TSK!TSK!
u r really punishing me fr smtg dat is nt even a mistake i did to u .
nw evryone is asking me abt us .
hw do u tink i can possibly avoid dis qns ?
think uhs .
u do dis to me n i have to answer to ppl ard us ?
nt fair aites .!

but i really do miss ur jokes n ur care .
lyk i said u are my beztie n honestly fakir pon tk mind mah !
u r my fren even b4 hys my guy .
so think uhs ! haiz !

hmm juz memories :(
nw we r juz enemies ( wad he wans uh ..)

im so missing hym ♥

2010-07-23T21:28:00.001+08:00

hmm , the whole of ystdae , i didnt text hym or chat w hym at msn .
hys pp8 muz stil b low n tat he muz have gone out to lepak ..
haiz . sumhw i miss hym . :'(
lyk duh !
he is my boify .
but a fren said to me tat "ko st8 pon same mcm ko maseh knal2 ngn dier -.-"
haiz ! havnt met hym yet .
n we hve been tgthr fr 1 wk plus alrd :'(
haiya .
got tis feeling he will get bored w me as we cud not spend tym tgthr seyh :(
BIE !! IM SO SORIE !
haiz . :'(
how ?
hmmmmmmm .
idk !
im lost of words . bye !

esppecially for euu ^^

2010-07-21T23:21:00.000+08:00

                                                          LOVE U LOTS . MUAX <3
                                              muhammad fakir hidayat azman♥
                                                         ♥ nur amalina abdul rahman

180710 ;

2010-07-21T20:59:00.000+08:00

todae im so pissed off w mum !
first she say im gg to granny hse
dn she came bck w a facee (nt happy)
she say nt gg .
lyk wtf !!
mum!! wads wrong w u seyh ??
dn i felt a little sad cos i cud not mit bie .:(

later at night sudenly i bcame bz ,
mcging non stop .
bt bie pp8 low ..
so not w bie but w ba .
at first evrytink was normal .
we jok ebout the status thing n all .
dn he accidentally send a mcg meant fr our junior chang huat !
it goes smtg lyk tis .
" haha the status was a joke ! bt if mama is sgl i will take her as my gf ."
i was lyk huh??
dn i told ba ..
n he goes .. " omg ! u knew ! my secret !"
n it followed by a few mre mcges nt meant fr me .
saying how sad n hurt he felt since im officially in a reltionshp .
so i asked hym personally do u lyk me ..
n he goes " no ... yes ... idk .."
n the day end w , ma , nw tat u r att dun hve to talk to me animre k ?
n pls hate me .. "

the nxt day he acted he dunnoe me . wen i mcged hym dn miskol .
he koled bck n say "hu r u ? idk u uh !"
so i put dwn the phone .. he called bck ! we fought !!
haiz ...

dn the day aftr ,
i forwarded hym a mcg ,
again he acted nt noeing me .
n i was lyk " wadeva eh "
n he say okdn lina...
so he damn noe hu i am ..
we fought again !!
dn i juz say i dun wann gado w u ..

he dn text me again asking me wad imwearing fr rhd !!
so random pe ba ?/
wtf !!
later at night he text me again , saying he missed me !!
omg !! ba !!!
merepek to the max eh kau !!!
so i was juz texting hym w ouh ok .
haiya !! so merepek !!

dala ba . go bc to tat chinese gal k ?
haiz ...

dala bye :(

170710 ;

2010-07-21T20:37:00.000+08:00

since todae is saturday , lyk any other saturdays , tat im at hme ,
it was damn boring !!
haiz! :'(
well todae i cooked kari ayam ..
heheh ^^
hungry bah so cook uh .
my bro says its delicious ,
so two thumbs up to me ! yeay !
hehe .
ntg much happened at hme ,
bie text me .
i asked hym bout the two gals story .
n he told me evrytink .
hmm seems lyk she was once very dear to hym .
i wanna ask hym ,
bt i fear tat he might get angry .
hmmmm , i wud lyk to ask ,
" bie , if one day she cme bck to u n wants to b w u again . wad will u do ? dump me ?"
hmm idk .
but u say u love me kan .
dn i was a little pissed w bie coz he dunnoe my name ..
he goes
"nur amalina bte rahim "
n i go ,
"sape tuu ? u gt my name wrong md fakir hidayat bin azman "
n he eply
"nur amalina bte abdul rahim :)"
n i say
" no !! stil wrong !1 :'("
then lastly he got it right ^^
hahah .. nvm it was juz a small matter kn bie <3
dn bie asked if he can b gd bf to me ?
yes off course bie ! i noe u will !
i trust u kae honey ?!
juz dun break tat trust ..
n i hope u trust metoo ^^

lastly , sayang love hubbie <3

bye ^^ muax

160710 ;

2010-07-21T20:21:00.000+08:00

todae was a grumpy day !
why were they showing atitude w me sia ?
fcuk !
haiz !
wen wan calss me , "wak , wak !"
i juz act didnt hear .
n i noe pretty well i showed face at hym .
lyk duh , im hurt sia !
but i was mre fed up tat rabani didnt talk to me at all !
plus he showed face at me .
wad i do to hym ?
he angry bout the status thing ?
IDK seyh !
haiya !
" baba , tkmo gini uh mama kene change it uh .!

apart frm all tat , my day was actually ok . haha
mumy , lulu , syidah n caca kept disturbing to find out the indonesian guy's name .
hahahha . but no doubt he quite cute uhs ^^ hehs he made my day wen he smiled at me . :)
but i gt boify alrd if not .... hahah . sorie bie jk ! ^^ lol .
so mumy was lyk wen u wan ask hym . i was lyk tkpe RHD i wan tke pic w hym .
so they all say SET ! hahahhah .

nw tat nyt wan text me n say sorie n tat he hope my relationship last ..
while he is figuring out whether to patch w hys ex gf . .
i juz say gd luck in ur love lyf ye wan ^^

hey u ! stop staring at me larh . wad r u nt hapie abt ?
wad cos of ur mataer ?
dun worry kae ? i wont steal hym away frm u . he is only my ex .!
furthrmre ive move on so he pon da tk exist !

bie , hmm susa e kte nk mit ?
distance .....
hpefully u tk gt bored lak .. sori love ..
muax <3

bye ^^

update fr the past weeks ;

2010-07-21T20:03:00.000+08:00

so i will b blogging bout past week ^^

to b cont'd.............

Boo!!!

2010-07-21T19:27:00.000+08:00

Hihi =) Her Bf here
Since my cute girlfriend lazy to update,i shall help her hehe
Its has been 1 week since we r together n we r still staying strong haha
Nobody gg to bring us down right r D?hehe
Dont worry k D?even if things get worst,i will always stay right here with u
Watever things they throw at us,we get through it together k D?
K la im offf..........bubye D muawh
WO AI NI =D
UNTIL WO GILAR haha =)

hey wan stop la!!!

2010-07-16T00:13:00.000+08:00

haiz ..!!
felt bad . wan is blaming me fr hurtin hym .
he claim i cheat on hym !!!
wth !!
wan sejak bler seyh ??
told u nt to put hopes wad !! u yg nk wait !!
waduh!!
dn dun go ard putting the whole blame on me...!!1
first u dun even noe rabani is my bf or not , dn u go scold me as if i expects u n bani to gado!!!
dn u say i play w ur heart !! excuse me hu lyk hu now eh ?
dn u bloodily says u frgive me fr hurting u ??
eh ive said sorie ... u call me alot of things dn u apologise fr saying such things ?
haiz hurts me damn hard eh !!
waliao !!
tired seyh fight w u !!
juz ignore me pls!!!
mke me invisible k ?

bye !! :'(

140710 ;

2010-07-15T22:40:00.000+08:00

hehehehehhehehe .
guess wad im changing my status frm single to in a relationship . ^^
but this tym round fr real ...
at 11:23 14 july , im officially attached to MUHAMMAD FAKIR HIDAYAT !!!<3
heheh !!
hpe last long ye bie ..
dun play w my heart ! dun break it pls! it has been broken fr a few tyms alrd ..
trust me k dear ...:)
n i promise to lve u whole heartedly .
nvr cheat on u .
stop cntcting w knal2 .
n stay faithful to only u .
hehe .
antink else u wan me promise ?
hehs .
lastly ;
love u bie ! ! <3

120710 ;

2010-07-12T21:30:00.000+08:00

started of w i woke up late todae ! OMG! its alrd 6 ! was in a rush ! bt dun woorie , i bathed ! hehs^^

dn swee swee i rched skul juz in tym ! pheww ! hp safe ! mp4 safe ! n no scolding !

dn first period ;

mr mus lesson , get bck maths paper 2 ! waduh ! he says "almost" ! waliao ! bt i improve alot uhs .

bt guess wad fr few qn dat has been gone thru , i wasted 11 precious marks ! :'(

second period ,

mr low's lesson br he is nt in .attending sum cakra buana stuff . did ws . actually our prelim paper uhs .

i did it while listening to mp4 ! n mummy , lulu , akit ,fanaa go ... "so loud ??"

hahaha .

dn recess !!! ^^ ate kwey teow soto . nyum !

nxt english .

waliao chong lesson so damn sleepy !

todae at skul i sort of gt a shock while sleepin doing compre text . thot no one saw bt Akit Mansor and Nurul Farhanah saw n we laughed thruout tat so called test ! hahah n dn i burst out laughing . hahah lucky nvr gt scoldin . LOL .

dn poa ,

ouh results sux big tym .among the lowest aites !!

nxt assembly .

dunnoe wad is happening . i fall asleep n my head goes around lyk helicopter . hahah paiseh seyh !

nxt phy , lee nt in class half left to cabot . bt i among those hu stayed ! gd gall mah !! hehs dat s all la fr todae . bubye . muax<<<333

if only i cud b frank ..!! :'(

2010-07-11T22:20:00.001+08:00

well , pic shows im lyk emo . it really shows hw i am nw . though tis pic is nt current . hmm , u noe i felt reall bad . i hve to lyk b w two guys seyh nw !
!! haiyo !! felt bad . both lyks me . both wans me as gf . both wans to wait fr me till aft o lvls . n both oso shows insincerity towards me . they mite nt notice i felt dat way bt realli both had their trust taken away frm me . so how ? idk hu shud i lyk b wif ? i dun wan at the end of the dae , they blame fr playin w their heaarts or so . haiz . bt idk . haiz nt sure uhs . gotta make up my mind .:(

hey♥♥ back blogging ^^

2010-07-11T16:29:00.000+08:00

Yahoo !! since i have a lappy alrd , can blogging owaes!!
hehs^^

started of with , i miss all my previous skul frens lyk suddenly seyh ! :'(

aiyoh !

kae prelim juz over , got results .
not dat gd though .
but i am really glad dat , i passed my maths ppr 1.
hope dat paper 2 is gonna b ok .
physics , i guess i've improved .
but sadly chemistry sux big tym !
therefore , i failed combined science .
i tink !! arrgh !!
combine human shud b an A2 . shud b uhs .
my social is my bez subject after malay uh , i was quite glad i passed geog paper quite well although i studied last minute . hehs^^ poa ? dun bother , i noe im gonna flung in tis subject !!

lyf ? am great . got lappy mah <3 . hehs !!
hmm , got to b serious nw , since o lvls is coming up .
i reaaly hpe i can ace thru it .
n dn go to poly of my dream .
hmm , i oso gotta stop lyking guys lei .
hehs !!
i hope he , will realy keep hys words in wanting to wait fr me .
bt i dun really expect ym uhs .
i oso dunno hw sinncere is he in "LOVING" me !!

hmm , dats all la fr nw ..
write soon ^^ muax..

250909;

2009-09-25T16:13:00.000+08:00

hmm..
this few daes , i hve been very restless .
dunnoe y myb cos lotsa jln raye!!!!
hahah!!
noe wad i was so hapie dat i didi well for my ss prelim ppr ..
2nd in class:38/50
yipeee!!!
bt my geog sux big tym...
i no mood for geog..
hmm..
family notink much to sea lerh... haish!!!!
frens ;
2 daes ago i went jln raye wit mie fwens..
so fun...
i got laughed at as i wear dis stupid high heels hahah..
so tall n sooo difficult to walk..
basketr!!!
heheh...
hmm.. i enjoy dat dae so much..
shidaa fighting wit babat!!!
hahah...
gt dis one tym, i fall!!!
lucky mira caught me in tym n i hold on to rabani .
thnx u all if not i realli paiseh!!!
hmm at the end of e dae my leg badly hurts!!"(
hmm... hym???
idk y bt i cant 4get hym!!
serius shit!!!
he realli steals my heart@!
bt y???
haish!!1
difficult u noe...
i cant simply act normal in front of hym...
i will sum hw b jellied... :(
waliou eh!!1
i realli loved hym!!
no matter how many tyms i promised caca dat i wil 4get hym, i cant !!1
i cant!!1
it realli is driving me craziee!!!

270809;

2009-08-27T16:27:00.000+08:00

hai im here again....

todae is so much lyk normal dae ....

i failed SEQ ppr bt did well in SBQ ...

mt i was slacking wit syayie walking ard skul..

dn amaths mustaffa nvr cum so again slack ...

so basically todae is one of my slack dae ...

poa miracly , i undstnd sumhow the lesson ..

hhahah....

actualli i was hurt by sum PEOPLE ..

why in dis world , thr r ppl hu juz sae wadeva they lyk witout tinkin abt other ppl???

dun they noe dat others have feelings??

dun they noe wad they sae or do mite hurt the person ??

n in dis case , the person is me???

i ignored bt how long cn i fake a smile ???

evrydae of my lyf ???

idk la ...

sadly dat PEOPLE juz enjoy hurting me juz bcos i kept my bloody mouth shut ...

haiz ...

.....................................

260809;

2009-08-27T16:19:00.001+08:00

haiz...
wad to sae ,
my lyf hasowaes been fuck up . .
yesterdae i kena scolding bcos of notink ...
it is nt even my fault ..
my dad was scolding me lyk craziee ..
my mom 'jdi batu api' ..
cibai u noe ..
den wen my dad go she...
u deserve it ..
i den cried uncontrollably ..
i've gt no mom ..
den dat is how she treated me ???
i realli miss my dead mom ..
guess she love me more...
i dun realli rmbr much bout her cos i wasn't dat close to her
im closer to my dad bt nw,
evrytink is diff ...
im no one in my own family ..
haish ..
i realli am so fed up wit lyf ...
i felt ive gt no mom or dad who realli understand me....
kaela dats all :(

O lEVEL ResuLT")

2009-08-20T17:10:00.000+08:00

190809;

the dae i got my malay o level result..

my result:A1...")

im so prud of miesleff...

hee...

nola actualli its miracle i dunnoe how i got it...

i dun deserve it...

cos' i slept tao...

ahahahahha....

i got gd marks bt...

my mom tk layan gtu...

i was hurt sumhow...

bt nemind...

in skul gt ppl tk hapie wit me...

i noe the prson is nt hapie bt pls...

dis is part n parcel of lyf...

u wont b owaes on th e top...

n pls dun hve to b sarcastic to me... i have feelins la seii...

OMG!!!!!!!

My secret is revealed.....

lots of ppl noe...

n shockingly sumone dat nt suppose to noe oso noe...

i juz scared dis will leaked to the guy hymself...

whr muz i hide my face??

how am i to face hym???

wad if he confront me???

im dead...

help...!!!

there r juz backstabbers bhind me...

im so hurt...

bt how they noe??

those ppl....

haiz...

familiku;

im so fed up wit mie famili....

we are nt lyk famili seii...

my stepmom arent toking to me...

i noe she hate me....

mepek uh....

my daddie...

i love hym most...

")")")

bt pls uh ppl dat is blackmagicking hym...

stop it...

if he die i have no one....

my brother,, owaes finding fault wit me... haiz...

kaeladats abt all....

stop 4 todae...

im CruShed

2009-08-13T17:42:00.001+08:00

TirINg dAE....

2007-09-17T13:23:00.000+08:00

tOdAY.......iS veRY sian LA..........

I cANNOt absOrB aNything La TOdAE....
I aM so blur lyk soToNG....
JUz NOW mY mAlAy TeaChER tALk i Am SoRt Of dUn undersTAnd....
sO BLUR la Me................

MISS U!!!!!

HAIZ My Lyf Is LYk EmptY wen u're GONE...
MIss U so MUCH......
LETS hOPe EVRYTHING Will BE bACk To NOrMAl weN ...
FASTiNg MNTH ends....
I thINK i WILL Be readI by THen........
juz HoPE u Will ACCEpT Me BACk.........

my first TyM bLOggInG

2007-09-12T15:07:00.001+08:00

I HAD jus created dis n caN'T waIT to Use it....

in CLAss juS NOW......
DAVID was beggInG Randy 4 hiS sTuPID pEncil BOX............
n HE cRIED....

during Dis long DaY it IS sO BoRiNG .......
I cAn't CONCENTRATE In clASS......DuNNo Why.......iT is SO bORING...

BLAHBLAHBLAHblah.....